Fears mixed with Hope.

I fear tomorrow will be no different than today
I fear our economy will continue to dissolve before our very eyes
I fear Obama will be blamed for circumstances beyond his control
I fear my son will not have the life I was afforded; Not have the freedom of speech, the safety of playing outside or walking to school, and have limited food/nourishment options
I fear I will not be with my current company, and that my current company will close its doors
I fear my health will fail
I fear my son's health will fail
I fear for what tomorrow may bring
I fear.

I hope today will be the start of a new wave of American enthusiasm
I hope my fears of the unknown economic state of our nation will subside
I hope Obama rocks our country in a way no other person has before
I hope my son will be able to have the life I've been fortunate to have; freedom of speech, the safety to play outside and walk to school, and fun options for food (be it home-cooked meals or going out to eat)
I hope I will still be working for my current company for many years to come
I hope I will maintain my health
I hope my son will stay healthy
I hope for a better tomorrow, while I continue to enjoy today
I hope.

Price Check Please!

I'm honestly bored with dating. I want to find a "soul mate" (ugh, that sounds so cheesy!). The dating pool feels like it has dried up for me.

I've tried networking through my friends...it didn't work.

I've tried the online dating thing....met three guys...I'm still single

I'm not a church girl....so it's not gonna happen there.

I'm at a point where I feel like I need to hang up my dating shoes for a while. Honestly, my dating shoes feel like they have failed me, big time.

So I ask you this....where the hell can I buy a new pair of dating shoes since my off brand kicks have OBVIOUSLY failed me? Thanks...

OH! p.s. I'm a girl on a budget. k-thanks!

Notes from the Heart

Dear Justin,

You've definitely proved to me why you are the hottest, funniest most amazing man.

Love you long time,
Miz

Consumed.

Sugar, weight, calories, fat, dating and exercise. That's all my brain has been consumed with this week. Why, you ask? Because I really really really want to slim down. For myself, for my social dating life, and also, because I am sick of being the fat girl.

Now...those of you who know me IRL may argue with me that I'm not "fat" and to this, I say "Well, I'm not skinny!" I could be categorized as healthy, curvy, busty, thick...thin and in-shape does not fit into that mix, and I want it to!!

I've signed up for an online calorie counter, and am participating in a weekly training session that also gives me support through homework and email contact in between workouts. So far, I'm slightly down in weight. Hopefully I can keep it up. I firmly believe that once I REALLY start going, there will be no stopping me!! :)

I also purchased a scale as a gentle reminder to mind what I am putting into my body. This is the first time in my entire life that I've had a scale at home. I hope it helps me unlock the magical key to weight loss success!

Wish me luck!!! (Lord only knows, this girl is GONNA NEED IT!!)