Happy Sigh.

Ever have one of those dreams where you're left completely disturbed? I totally had one of those on Friday night.

It was about my good friend, and her wedding that was to take place on August 29th. I won't lie, the dream was so disturbing I didn't tell a single person about it.

How did the actual wedding on Saturday go?

Perfect.

Although the weather for the outdoor ceremony was slightly on the chilly side, it was an absolutely perfect day.

Good people. Happy tears. Crazy-fun dance moves. Memories of pure happiness that will be ingrained in my head and my heart for the rest of my life.

So Fresh, So Clean.

Have you ever changed your laundry detergent? I know, such a "serious question."

Some people are die-hard Tide folks, while others are lean towards the alternative like Cheer, Gain or Era.

Me? I have two requirements for my laundry detergent.

1. Is it on sale?
2. Does it smell good?

If the answer is yes to both, then I'm not afraid to try it out. For a while, I used to swear that Era would make my clothes smell the best....then one day, Era was more expensive than Tide...so I tried Tide.

It's funny though, some scents work better than others for me. I swear there's a Tide scent that makes my clothes smell like B.O. and there are other Tide scents that blow my mind. Tide with Febreeze? LOVE IT...until I recently caved in and tried April Fresh Tide with Downy. Be still my heart.

Why spend five minutes organizing my thoughts about laundry soap? Because I'm sitting at my desk, and have been continuously adorned with April Fresh with Downy smelling clothes for the past hour. I might have found a new lover favorite laundry soap peeps!

Do you have a fav detergent, or a failsafe one? Are you as off the wall as I am?

Happy Hump Day!

Scars

I have the butterflies today..and I can’t really figure out why. Well..I have some ideas, but I’ve been unable to pin point the exact cause of my giddiness. I think I’ve begun to see my life in a different light. I do deserve love. I do deserve to be happy, with a man in my life. I am not going to count myself out of the running. I’ve got my chin up, and a big silly grin on my face. It IS possible for me.
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The Crush that apparently broke me:

I was in high school, and I think it was my sophomore year. He was tall, a grade ahead of me, and very good looking. His smile melted me. I was experiences a true school-girl crush.
The funny thing about me in high school was I didn’t crush on boys very often. I was very athletic, so much so that I always buried myself in athletics, leaving little to no time for crushing on boys.
My friends and I decided to go to the hockey game. If memory serves me correct, the winner of the game went to the state tournament (which is a pretty big deal in Minnesota). The band was there, the stands at the Coliseum were packed with students and parents.
About ten rows ahead of me, there he was. Sitting with his upperclassmen friends. Laughing. Having a great time. And there I was, sitting with my friends. Pretending to watch the game, but constantly staring at him hoping for a bit of reciprocation.
In between periods I glanced to find him, and he was nowhere to be found. I sat silently, wondering where he had disappeared off to…and then I felt a tap on my shoulder.
“You really need to learn how to stare.”
It was him.
I was completely embarrassed. Mortified. Hurt. Frustrated. You name whatever negative feeling that comes to mind and I was probably feeling it.
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Yes, we all experience moments in high school that are awkward, uncomfortable, or even hurt. Looking back, I can see why a circumstance like this would leave me with a deep scar. The funny thing is, I never realized it until a complete stranger said a few key words that helped me look back on my life and reevaluate what I deserve, and what I need to let go of.

I still have my doubts about clairvoyance, but I am so thankful I took the plunge and allowed myself to experience an Extreme Love Makeover.

Today, I am happy.