These are a few reasons why I('m):
1) Freak out when I'm told that I'm making errors.
Last week was extremely rough. I'll try not to drag it out, but in a nutshell...
I thought I was on top of my game. I was feeling very comfortable with my newly assigned tasks since our latest layoff. I had cut back on my internet sluff-off time, and was focusing on work (because I needed to). I was feeling so comfortable that I actually sluffed off more than I have in a long time last tuesday.
Wednesday came around, which greeted me with a sick little man and my period.
Once Thursday was here, I was then told by my boss that she is losing trust in my work because I was making multiple errors. I guess the girl who thought all was fine and dandy was effing up. Crap.
I have the utmost respect for my boss, so when I feel like I've "disappointed her" it feels more like I let my own parents down...You know the "talk"..."I'm not mad, I'm disappointed"...yeah, that one.
Friday couldn't have come fast enough...Then, I effed up a memo to our tenants. I was so flustered with how my week had gone, the second my rediculous error was pointed out to me I broke down in tears.
I enjoyed my time away from work this past weekend...but the catch-22 is I love my job, love my office, and have loved going to work since the first day I started here. The atmosphere has been great. The people have been kind and easy to work with.
Yes, I've been horrible at writing and commenting lately...maybe if I get back to my regularly scheduled morning posts, I will clear my head enough to actually focus during my day. It's worth a shot!!
4 days ago