Dark Days

It’s not fair. It really is not fair.

I speak of layoffs and the crappy economy. I’m not sure how, if or when it business is going to get better.

I feel a wave of things right now. Guilt, loss, frustration and relief.
Relief because it wasn’t me
Guilt because it wasn’t me
Guilt for how their families are going to endure
Loss of coworkers who felt like family

I still can’t fathom what drives the higher-ups to make decisions about who is staying and who is going. I can’t imagine it an easy task. I just don’t understand why it was this person and not that. My mind can’t find a way to wrap itself around the explanation that was given, especially when the only explanation falls on the back of the crappy economy.