I feel as if I'm at a crossroads. I have (what feels like) a million different ways I can turn, and I haven't been able to figure out which path will be the best decision.
I feel like moving. The catch? I would really love to move into a house (but for financial reasons CANNOT afford it). I also really love where I currently live. The downside to where I currently live? I feel like something is missing. Maybe if I get a garage so I can clear the outdoor toys out of my closets I'll feel a little less suffocated? Who knows!
I feel like relocating to another state. The catch? As fantastic as it sounds on paper, moving to another state where my social circle equals zero scares me to bits.
I feel like putting myself up for adoption. The catch? As frustrating as my family is, they're still my family. I CERTAINLY don't like a single one of them right now, but I will always love them. I wish my immediate family life wasn't so darn complicated. A dad who could care less if we spoke to one another. A mom who has a good heart but always seems to make crappy decisions. A brother who has a good heart but is so selfish and manipulating that he drives me UP A WALL. Do you know of any families willing to take a semi-crazy girl and her three year old son in? Thnx.
2 days ago