I feel as if I'm at a crossroads. I have (what feels like) a million different ways I can turn, and I haven't been able to figure out which path will be the best decision.
I feel like moving. The catch? I would really love to move into a house (but for financial reasons CANNOT afford it). I also really love where I currently live. The downside to where I currently live? I feel like something is missing. Maybe if I get a garage so I can clear the outdoor toys out of my closets I'll feel a little less suffocated? Who knows!
I feel like relocating to another state. The catch? As fantastic as it sounds on paper, moving to another state where my social circle equals zero scares me to bits.
I feel like putting myself up for adoption. The catch? As frustrating as my family is, they're still my family. I CERTAINLY don't like a single one of them right now, but I will always love them. I wish my immediate family life wasn't so darn complicated. A dad who could care less if we spoke to one another. A mom who has a good heart but always seems to make crappy decisions. A brother who has a good heart but is so selfish and manipulating that he drives me UP A WALL. Do you know of any families willing to take a semi-crazy girl and her three year old son in? Thnx.
1 day ago
Crossroads are tough. I've been there myself the past few months, it doesnt appear to be getting any better. Here's hoping we venture down one path or another soon.
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